Dear,
It hurts so much when you use all the power to exclude the unwanted negative energy, and only captivate the positive. Because this world  hasn't learnt that lesson yet. It's like constantly drowning. You lungs fight hard to use last traces of oxygen left in you, you have to learn to survive from what you have. But it's really hard when carbon dioxide pressures your mind to inhale, and just let go of your grip on life. In that second all you have is an unmade decision. You can go for the dark solution. Give in to the pressuring carbon oxide, that you in fact brought to this atmosphere yourself. Take back what you gave and leave. But when there is a dark side, there will also be light. Because what is dark without light. If both didn't exist how would you tell them apart from each other. If you wanted to see that light again, give out tiny bites of your inhaled oxygen and raise up above the water. The water that tried to keep you down, will eventually be the one to hold raised.