Presents

I woke up in a shit mood, and I couldn't even explain why. I feel so bad for my parents. They used to think everything was alright, and they thought I was gonna be this perfect kid. I'm such a big disappointment.

But my parents are really doing everything they can to make me feel better. I really should stop making them feel bad but I can't just pretend it's okay every time they look. You know? Pretending to be okay is hard work. My dad took me out shopping and lunch at my fave restaurant. I had to get b-day presents for R & J. I bought a bracelet and some kinda multi bracelet-necklace thingy. Like you can use it as both. But I really don't know what to get R. I could get him a CD, but I don't think people really listen to CDs anymore. I can't get him clothes, because he's a tiny person. So I thought about just making him a cake and get a huge pack of sweets. It really isn't enough, but I don't know what else to do.

I've just finished watching The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, it's perfect. I think I'm in love with Charlie. No, but I feel like I can really relate to the movie. How it feels like everything is just happening, and you just stand there. Oh, and I've just finished making a play-list with my fav non-pop songs... It's perfect! I swear, I think the only thing I like about myself is my taste in music!